Day 159, 115 pounds lost.
It was tough keeping the new badge I earned a secret today, but there it is! I couldn’t have earned it on a better day. At this very minute, my emotions are more unstable than an IKEA table. The feelings I have right now are so unbelievably overwhelming. I need to pinch myself just to prove that all of this is real.
Today I am also celebrating my 40th birthday. I was a bit nervous all week knowing this day was coming. There was a part of me that felt that turning 40 would mean the death of my youth. I had some time to think about it, and I believe that’s totally wrong; at least for me. “Over the Hill” by definition means “past one’s prime.” There are many people in my age group that have already gone through many of life’s milestones that I haven’t yet. To the contrary, I feel that my life has only just begun. They say the body declines after the age of 30, but I suppose that depends on who you ask. The road that I am traveling is taking my body to places it has never been, and I hope that by the end of my 40th year I will be in the best shape of my life. To me, this doesn’t sound much like a walk to the grave. The best is yet to come.
I promised myself that I would make the first goal by December. It might be the very last hour and second of December 31st, but dammit I will do it. I really have no idea what life has in store for me, and I say this knowing life has tossed me some sour apples along the way. However, my legs are getting stronger, and my feet are concrete. I said this would be the best year of my life and not a single thing is going to get in my way. I will make that goal come hell or high water.
One of you asked me over the last few days how I started. This is for you.
“On your knees, you look up
Decide you’ve had enough
You get mad, you get strong
Wipe your hands, shake it off
Then you stand.”
Lovingly,
Bean.
