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April 6, 2017

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And…. Of course, I need to journal how I’m feeling, or I might forget later. I know I will look back one day and remember “I did that”!

I survived my first day of Bootcamp but not before I sat in the bathroom shortly before class started wondering if I would throw up. Fight or flight response I suppose. I had worked myself into a ball of nerves thinking I wasn’t going to cut the mustard. I feel silly now….. because it wasn’t anything like the scenario I created in my head, but at the same time, it was every bit difficult and then some. Today’s lesson was “do what you can,” and I received a humbling dose.

I’m not sure what lead me to believe that I needed to walk in there and do everything perfect. For the first 20 minutes of class, I would silently panic every time something involved jumping or my knees having direct contact with the floor. The pain is so engrained that simple anticipation makes it awkward. On the flip side to that, there were times when I would flinch expecting pain, and there wasn’t any. I was lucky enough to have two voices beside me that reminded me to modify when needed. As I looked around, there were others that were modifying. I don’t know why I beat myself up like that because it wasn’t necessary. I really am quite mean to myself sometimes. It wasn’t about who was doing it faster or better. It was about doing MY best while continuing to move. When I would stop, I would hear the voices, “keep moving, just keep moving.” I truly think this is the reason I made it. Sometimes we all need those nudges. As much as I was not expecting them, I was lucky to receive them. To those two voices beside me today, I thank you. All anyone can do when they decide to show up is to do what they can. If I believed that’s all I needed to do, I would have shown up much earlier. Who knew? *stumped*

It’s been a few hours, and I’m back at home hobbling around. I’m hurting, but it feels good. A few months ago, this class would not have been a consideration. Had I been invited back then, I would not have shown up. That’s what feels incredible, and despite however amazing or terrible I may have done today it doesn’t even matter. I walked in the f-ing door, by myself……that’s what matters. Every single time I walk through those doors I feel a little more proud. I’m going to reward myself for the efforts, not the results. That’s the way it should be.

One final thought for the day. I doubt many of you will understand but here it is anyway. Good things shouldn’t feel like a struggle. Sometimes it’s okay just to decide to stick ideas or people into a little pink balloon and simply…. let go. I have one goal right now, that’s it. The rest – I surrender.

Consider this my moment to BREATHE.

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life

food

coching

chalkboard

journey to 300

home

explore the blog

THIS IS ME | BE COURAGEOUS, BE MYSELF.

TRUE COLORS PART DEUX | DRAWING THOSE PARALLELS

Trending

search the post index

MORE ABOUT ME

Welcome to my digital den! Here, I dish out raw, uncut tales and nuggets of wisdom on how to embrace consistency, inner healing, and an unshakable mindset - all in the name of genuine, lasting transformation. And did I mention? I'm pretty much a CrossFit chatterbox!

I'm Athena Perez

Since 2011, I've been on a mission to rewire my own self-limiting beliefs and patterns that were holding me back because I believe an unshakable mindset can be our #1 life hack.


In these parts I not only share my own journey but also lend a hand to others to create a life filled with genuine resilience, purpose, and grit. I'm a big fan of a good cup of joe, chalk, and teaching folks like you how to 'lift the wait'. Let’s get weird. 


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