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Day One. I’m Still Standing

June 8, 2015

June 8, 2015

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I'm Athena, "Bean," a dedicated advocate for training larger-bodied athletes. Since my first CrossFit story in 2018, I've become a CFL2, owner of Scaled Nation Training, and creator of "Working with Larger Bodies" seminar. I've also written "Lifting the Wait," with sequel "Waitless" coming soon.

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Welcome to my digital den! Raw stories, real talk, and CrossFit banter—all about building consistency, healing, and an unshakable mindset for lasting transformation.

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Day one. I’m not sure what to call it? Today is the first day of the rest of my life? Ehh. That’s sounds boring and cliché. Today I give a shit; maybe that’s what’s different. I’ve been a little pissed off lately and maybe that’s how I needed to get at myself. Mad. You see I haven’t given a shit in a long time.

Oh, sure I gave a shit every time I stepped on the scale, and I could see those numbers slowly climb. I cared what the numbers became, I just didn’t give a shit to do something about it.

I cared when everything I owned became too small. I cried myself to sleep many times.

I cared when the doctor told me that that I had a pretty severe thyroid condition and allergies to everything under the sun, but I didn’t give a shit to remove those things from my diet. Seemed pretty damned unfair to me.

I cared about my home and working 13-18 hours a day trying to take care of my businesses, but I didn’t care enough to give myself rest and to take care of myself. What’s going to happen to my businesses if I am dead? I care about that.

I guess the point I am trying to make is I didn’t care about me. I’m not sure where that originated. It wasn’t conscious, but it sure was based on my actions.

I’ve tried a million times since I was kid to get my weight under control. I failed, and you know what? I didn’t give a shit.

So…. today I suppose I give a shit. If I don’t listen to my doctors, I am going to die. I guess that’s the synopsis of day one. I’m not a victim of my life. I got handed some pretty shitty cards…. But God gave me the power to deal with those cards. I’m not a victim; I’m a survivor in every sense of the word.

I need to start acting like one.

Yeah. I’m still standing. I can’t see my feet when I look down, but I know they are down there. Ever Been there? Yeah, I’m there.

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meet athena

Welcome to my digital den! Raw stories, real talk, and CrossFit banter—all about building consistency, healing, and an unshakable mindset for lasting transformation.

hey, friends!

Since 2011, I've been on a mission to rewire my own self-limiting beliefs and patterns that were holding me back because I believe an unshakable mindset can be our #1 life hack.

In these parts I not only share my own journey but also lend a hand to others to create a life filled with genuine resilience, purpose, and grit. I'm a big fan of a good cup of joe, chalk, and teaching folks like you how to 'lift the wait'. Let’s get weird. 

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